loveherlots

2007-12-09T20:00:00.000-08:00

Apaches Oei!

Recently, I signed up as a student leader for this red camp. Though in the beginning I knew nothing much about the whole event, getting more involved helps as it allows me in getting the edge of being able to build stronger ties with the campers and most importantly making sure campers had a better understanding of the schools and thus benefit from this little campaign. Moving on, here are some of the highlights of the camp.

Day1 started off where sl’s and campers gathered at the convention center for the official opening of the camp. You could see 5 different tribes of different colours segregated among the entire hall and well it was a wonderful sight. Starting on the left, we had the mighty apaches in red, the seductive centurions in yellow, fierce Spartans in the middle in white, followed by the horny Vikings in green and lastly the funny ninjas in blue.
First item of the day was put up by our very own barracudas, their music really heated us up, and thus drew all of our attention as we carried on with the skid! It was just a show on how each individual tribe came about. Quite entertaining I should say, especially with those adorable ninja moves! And maybe that was how it broke the tensed atmosphere within the convention hall.
Headed off to the health science block, saw pretty much on the medical side which I doesn’t very regularly, There was the baby care station, icu and operation theatre station, not forgetting the video viewing, so on and so forth… One of the most unforgettable events that happened was the short demonstration on how experiments in labs were done. It was such because, so far as I can recall, a particular demo went wrong and causes a small explosion in the lecture room. All of us got a shock, the doc too, surely he never expect that to happen on such a day. We were all relieved that no one was hurt in the process, but was rather petrified after a misjudgment by the specialist.
A heavy meal and right after we were on our way to the school of film and media studies together with school of humanities as campers can have a feel of what it’s like to be in the filming industries, such as getting involved in broadcasting, news reporting, photo shoot, etc…
And that pretty much sums up the day as we went back to the convention center for CCA fiesta. And I can tell you, the range of CCAs Ngee Ann offers is just so wide, over a hundred of them in total for students to choose from. Well, I’m one example that is pretty much involved in them, six on my list though.
Before ending the first day, we taught the campers some cheers, one of them sounded as if we’re a bunch of red Indians, well that was our mascot. First day was already so fun, more to come on the second I suppose.

What really struck my mind when I thought of day 2 was of course the mass dance. SL’s took some time before mastering all the moves. Well, now it was our turn to teach them that. Initially, none of them seems really enthusiastic about it obviously but after a demonstration on stage from all the sl’s. All of them started to gain interest! and that was a very good sign, in terms of having people really participating in it.
After all, it was fun! Laughing at each other’s silly mistakes, having to try it out themselves! Those emcees and dancers on stage appeared really confident! And yes! Sl’s pretty much enjoyed themselves and I’m sure the campers feels the same way too.
Back tracking, visited the school of business in the morning before moving to the school of infocomm technology in the late afternoon. The day stayed that way till the end.
Furthermore, two allies were formed. One of them was the Achukings, the other was the Spanjas. Well of cos, I will say the Achukings is the better of the two right!!! But this seems like a marriage of convenience…(thinking politically)

THE BIG DAY, MOST IMPORTANT DAY! DAY 3!! Mass dance+hop nite =) FLAWLESS combination.
Visited the engineering side on the last day of the camp, and ya, planes!!!!
Highlight of the day was the cheer competition. Spend lots of effort getting the whole apache to practice on them but I should say everyone did a great job, and I’m glad to see campers also heavily involved in it. Maybe because those cheer gave them a sense of identity and a sense of belonging… and even for the mass dance, each tribe had their own unique beginning move….
The cheers competition was certainly fun and hmm…a little dangerous I should say. The funny part comes when a PHYSICAL war actually broke out between Spartans and Apaches!! For some reason, the Spartans always attack and marched towards us. It has been like that since the start of the camp and the rivalry became bigger as each day progress. So, ya we had our self defense!! The SLs lined themselves up on the frontline and apaches campers were just behind us as we prepare ourselves for a serious battle. The war finally broke out, and our allies(reinforcement) came to the rescue!!!! It’s really cool! Looks so dramatic…
Though lots of us fell but, it was fun being a part of it… eventually, we the mighty apaches won!!!!! Wow. That very moment when results were announced, many of us seated down just went crazy as we continued with all our cheer yet again! It’s hard to control our joy=)
A finale followed by the mass dance almost rounds all the whole camp.

AND YES!! Hop nite is finally came. We waited. And waited. Everyone just seemed so on about it. Hop Nite!
DJ Andrew Chow definitely lives up to his name! The moment he was in the spotlight, practically the whole hall was filled with enthusiasm. People got super high and I mean SUPER HIGH. Many were jumping around as we groove it to the music. Looks pretty much like clubbing, though I didn’t really been to one but certainly I can feel it right here. As I could see, many enjoyed themselves.

Time really flies. The camp comes to and end. Enjoyed myself in this camp, besides benefiting all in a way or another and it’s something that doesn’t come by all the time. R

RED CAMP JUST ROCKS!! Probably the best camp one can ever attend=)

2007-11-19T23:45:00.000-08:00

A WALK TO REMEMBER
*love is like the wind, you can't see it, but you can feel it.

Each Spring in the little port town of Beaufort, North Carolina, when the wind smells of pine and salt and the sea, Landon Carter remembers his senior year at Beaufort High and Jamie Sullivan, the girl who changed his life.

Jamie was the last person Landon was likely to fall for. Serious and conservative, she was as far from cool as she could possibly be, and didn’t care. The daughter of the town’s Baptist minister, Jamie was not afraid of letting people know that her faith was the most important part of her life, even if it cost her some friends. Landon hung with the in-crowd -- an aimless, moody, reckless guy who breezed through school on looks and bravado. He had no plans, no future and no faith in himself.

One night a prank that he and his buddies set up goes terribly wrong and lands a kid in the hospital. As punishment, Landon must tutor a young student at a poor school and participate in the Drama Club’s Spring play two activities the principal hopes will teach him some humility. They also happen to throw him into close contact with Jamie. Clearly in over his head, Landon is forced to ask her for help.

Soon, against his own expectations, Landon finds himself falling in love with this outwardly plain girl who possesses a passion for life he never imagined possible. But it isn’t easy. For reasons of her own, Jamie does everything she can to run away from romance until it becomes impossible to deny.

Being together will test everything that they believe in. Most of all, it will test the power of love and faith to transform a life into something worth living.

"some phrases quoted from the movie", found it quite meaningful

>> i do not need a reason to be angry with god

>> god has a bigger plan for me, than i have for myself
like this journey never ends

>> your is sent to me because i'm sick, tell me through all these

>> your my angel!

2007-11-18T22:30:00.000-08:00

Reflections

Whatever your cross,
Whatever your pain,
There will always be sunshine,
After the rain...

Perhaps you may stumble,
Perhaps even fall,
But God's always ready,
To answer your call...

He knows every heartache,
Sees every tear,
A word from His lips,
Can calm every fear...

Your sorrows may linger,
Throughout the night,
But suddenly vanish,
In dawn's early light...

The Savior is waiting,
Somewhere above,
To give you His grace,
And send you His love...

Whatever your cross,
Whatever your pain,
"God always sends rainbows...
After the rain..."

To get out of difficulty, one must usually go through it !

2007-11-15T23:00:00.000-08:00

RED CAMP!

RED Camp 4 is just like... EXACTLY ONE WEEK AWAY! And as we draw nearer to the ultra fun event, me myself as one of the Student Leaders am excited and i'm sure everyone else does too. We all will definetly enjoy ourselves in the camp but most importantly for the campers is that they get to learn and experience more about life in NP!
Went for briefing today and yesterday, a swap of tribes, was in Vikings but got transfered to Apaches, not knowing the reason, just hoping that everything turns out well. Moving on to the climax..
Gotten a little of feel of what i'll be expecting on the camp itself. Had so fun with the cheering of our tribe and also that mass dance we'll be having on the last day of the camp. By the way the track was taken from High School Musical 2! and yar, felt really great.
Hop Night and overnight Karaoke Session will be two things i'll be looking forward to , and of course at the end of the day i hope to make a couple more of friends..
till then. see your guys in camp! GO GO APACHES!

APACHES

More commonly known as the Red Indians, Apaches are the indigenous people from North America. The Apachean tribes were powerful tribespeople, fierce warriors and skillful strategists. They are also known to be extremely versant hunters who never fail to hit their target with the deadly bow-and arrow weapon. For many years since recorded history, Apaches have and will continue to be held together closely by a strong sense of unity.

Centurions

Centurions are famously known and respected as the high-ranking commanders in the ancient Roman Army. They are capable and strong leaders who led the Roman Infantry from the front, inspiring their men by example. Courageous warriors, these fighters are not to be easily defeated. Centurions are highly responsible commanders who fight alongside their soldiers, at the same time guarding them from harm.

NINJA

Trained for dangerous missions, Ninjas are extremely agile and quick fighters of ancient Japan. Known as one of the best masters of defence, ninjas are warriors in all senses. Their swift tactics and weapons are partially derived from the need to conceal or defend themselves from their enemies. An undaunting fighting spirit and a quick mind, Ninjas are invinsible combat masters. Yataaaaa!

SPARTANS

Trained from infancy to be brave and unfearing warriors, these ancient Greece soldiers form a valiant and valorous army who have fought countless victorious battles. Spartans are deeply committed and loyal soldiers who follow are obedient to their laws. The Spartans' undying loyalty to their homeland is highy commendable and regarded. They are true inheritors of the Greek tradition "Return Victorious or return dead". Ahwooo!

VIKINGS

Vicious and bloodthirsty, industrious and heroic. Vikings are daring masters of the sea, ferocious and warlike in their battles. Agile and quick in their movement, Vikings fight audaciously on both land and sea. Their expeditions often concluded with victorious results. Known for their intimidating horned helmets, they are also strong-hearted warriors who are not to be offended. Arrrrrrrrr!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-12T22:30:00.000-08:00

God uses every experience and struggle to sanctify you

There’re times in our lives when we desperately need a fresh touch from the Lord. We face unexpected circumstances; one example will be painful relationships. We desperately need a fresh touch from God and we know it.
However, too often the first thing we do when we feel desperate is to look for a quick fix. We say things like “If God won’t do anything, I’ll do it myself.” “If God won’t heal this relationship, I’ll end it.”
But all the efforts to fix our problems or resolve the crisis won’t yield much. The Lord wants so much to hear us say, “Forgive me, Lord. I thought I was right, but now I see I was just looking for an out.”
Whether we know it or not, that’s a good place to be. God’s always ready to reveal to a humble heart the futility of effort apart from Him. Jesus in John 21 is asking you “Are you ready to give me this thing that troubles you?
He’s using every experience, struggle, to sanctify us. Next time you wonder what God could be up to, just say to yourself, “He’s changing me,” and you’ll be right. When disappointments or heartaches come, try to imagine God Himself holding the chisel sculpting your likeness into His.

All these happen because God wants to demonstrate His power and splendor through my life. He wants to get me to the place where no matter what happens to me or what I’m going through, I’ll trust Him and walk to please Him, and are committed wholly to what He’s doing in me. I’ll invite Him to do His work in me, and watch Him display His awesomeness through me, and that I’m living right in the center of His will.

I believe that someday the whole tapestry will unfold for me, but for now I have to believe in spite of what is happening. God meant it for my good and for His glory in every situation. I must trust that what appears unloving may in fact be his great kindness.
“God is at work in your time of crisis.” Whatever is challenging and stretching me right now – be it in my family, studies, personal walk with God, or even my struggles, I believe that He’s at work. He’s building my faith in every circumstance. He knows all about the thing that is breaking my heart.

As soon as a problem drops on the table in my life, I wanted to find a way to squeeze out from under the pressure. But I believe that He himself has a purpose in mind when He allows trails to invade our lives. Like turning turning coal into diamonds, some things only happen under a lot of pressure. Staying under the pressure is how God tests my faith in order to make me a better person. But first, I’ll have to make it through the process.
The issue here is not about facing trials, it’s how I’ll respond to them. I can bail on God and take matters into my own hands by becoming bitter and angry with His doing or anyone else’s. Or, I can submit Him and let God do His work with the confidence that He will not waste my sorrows and that, in the end, “all things work together for good.”

Sometimes I may wonder how a God of love allow that painful, wicked or difficult thing that happened in my past to hit me that hard. But nevertheless, I would say wait on the Lord. There will be a day when I’ll look back and see God’s sovereign hand at work in those trials. The truth is, He is in control of the situation that troubles my heart right now. Lean on the Lord and believe that He is working and one day I might just succeed.

>>and it will be 8 months after the 12a.m. mark.

2007-10-31T23:30:00.000-07:00

A place never like home

Choir Choir! So happened that one day my friend who went with us for the vacation trip was from choir. I remembered that time we were talking about the various CCAs we have and hers was choir. After hearing from her, due to my personal interest and desire, I joined the choir for practice.
Since then, I have never regretted it. Besides learning all the basic techniques of singing, I learned that expressing of your feelings towards the song is important too. With such a comprehensive formula, I am sure that it would help me to sing better.
Choir is also a place where I can find peace, comfort and love. After being together for quite sometime, they could tell when I was facing with lots of struggles, especially with my personal stuff. And because of that I tend to be emotional most of the time. Nevertheless, they never failed to shower their concern. All of them would express their concern in one way or another and it really touches me.
Perhaps through this time, we have grown together, bonded with each other and I am so glad to have found another place to call home.

To end this sharing, I would like to update your on the upcoming performance with the choir. Below are the dates and venues for those performances. Do come down to support us. Yeah! =)

7/11 - Laoshi's concert( Victoria Concert Hall )
18/12(12p.m.) - Caroling( Creative Technology )
20/12(8.30p.m.) - Caroling( Ngee Ann City )
21/12 - Caroling( Ang Mo Kio Hospital )
22/12(7.45p.m.) - Caroling( Raffles Town Club )
22/12(9p.m.) - Caroling( Ngee Ann City )
23/12(7p.m.) - Caroling( Rendezous Hotel )
24/12(7p.m.) - Caroling( Rendezous Hotel )
25/12(12p.m.) - Caroling( Rendezous Hotel )

2007-10-29T23:30:00.000-07:00

I see your face
I look away
You've left me here without a trace

I hear your laugh
It melts my heart
But let me tell you I was my acting tough
Trying to find my missing path

You walked away
You never looked back
You never heard what my heart wanted to say
Right now my life is on the wrong track
I'm lost I can't find the way
I hope the sun will shine again someday
and God will show me the way

thank God for everything. Especially through this week, when i'm faced with so much, you pulled me through eventually. This song came about when ervine and i were sharing some personal stuff between us, it definetely expresses my feelings though the content wasn't there? It's of God's grace that this song is created, such a wonderful piece of lyrics written by the arts of ervine, hah and i did help out in some part of the editing. It will be one of the first song our band had came out with. Yeah, sing praise to the Lord!
Having shown some result, we mustn't slacken and to work harder in it. Meaning that i had to set aside some time from my usual busy schedule and to fill the melody up. Hopefully it will be completed by the end of the week. Readers, please check out for more updates on me in the upcoming post. tata...

>>I believe that you and me the sun will shine one day

2007-10-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

<3

In the shadows my spirit weak
Love broke the darkness and lifted me
And I know you'll never let me go

In the storm in the raging sea
Love conquered the fear and delivered me
And I know you'll never let me go

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me

Break my heart from what breaks yours
Everything I am for your kingdoms cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

2007-10-26T21:15:00.000-07:00

When We Two Parted

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted
To server for years,
Pale grew the cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss,
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

In secret we met
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?
With silence and tears.

我还能相信有神迹吗?

2007-10-22T21:45:00.000-07:00

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 2

School’s out and summer’s here. The East High Wildcats are gearing up for three sun and fun filled months of work??
Troy Bolton then stresses over getting a job with the price of college looming on his mind, as well as trying to make sure he and Gabriella are able to stay together all summer. As a symbol of his feelings for her, Troy gives Gabriella a necklace with his initial "T" on it on the last day of school. Aww… so sweet.
While Sharpay and Ryan plan on spending the summer at their family's country club, Lava Springs, Sharpay's summer plan also includes breaking up Troy and Gabriella by getting Troy hired at Lava Springs and making her move on him. She succeeded not long after.
Being attracted to the scholarship, it in addition makes the wildcat superstar go further away from his friends and even for his relationship with Gabriella was silently strained to the breaking point when he sees Ryan with his girlfriend, sparking a little jealously as well as his now tentative relationship with his best buddy, Chad.
With the pressure from obtaining a scholarship and Sharpay’s evil doings, Troy went further off. Finally, Gabriella confronted Sharpay and told Troy that she'll miss him but that she can't trust him anymore due to the way he'd been acting lately; she returns the necklace he had given her and leaves crying with the song “Gotta Go My Own Way” sung.
I feel for him too and was faced with the same scenario not long ago. It was definitely a ending I didn’t wanted.

But HEY, Troy then realizes the error of his ways and goes to apologize to Chad and the others. Ryan gets help from the Wildcats to conspire to get Troy and Gabriella back together. They succeeded, as once again they performed a duet together on a dinner. After the show, with some fireworks at the golf course, Troy and Gabriella finally share their first kiss, and the summer ends with a pool party and the Wildcats' celebration of a great summer together.
Happy for them that it ended that way, will mine be similar to theirs too??
I can only hope…

Everyday

Once in a lifetime
means there’s no second chance
so I believe that you and me
should grab it while we can

[Gabriella]
Make it last forever
and never give it back

[Troy]
It’s our turn, and I’m lovin' where we’re at

[Troy & Gabriella]
Because this moment’s really all we have

[Troy]
Everyday
of our lives,

[Gabriella]
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight

[Troy]
Gonna run

[Troy & Gabriella]
While we’re young
and keep the faith

[Troy]
Everyday

[Troy & Gabriella]
From right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud

[Gabriella]
Take my hand,

[Troy]
together we
will celebrate.

[Gabriella]
celebrate.

[Troy & Gabriella]
Oh, ev’ryday.

[Gabriella]
They say that you should follow

[Troy]
and chase down what you dream,

[Gabriella]
but if you get lost and lose yourself

[Troy]
what does it really mean?

[Gabriella]
No matter where we’re going,

[Troy]
it starts from where we are.

[ Troy & Gabriella]
There’s more to life when we listen to our hearts
and because of you, I’ve got the strength to start
Yeah, yeah, yeah!
Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight
Gonna run
while we’re young
and keep the faith.
Everyday

[Troy & Gabriella]
from right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
together we
will celebrate,

[Gabriella]
Oh, ev’ryday

[Troy]
We’re taking it back,
we’re doing it here
together!

[Gabriella]
It’s better like that,
and stronger now
than ever!

[Troy & Gabriella]
We’re not gonna lose.
‘Cause we get to choose.
That’s how it’s gonna be!

[Troy]
Everyday
of our lives,

[Gabriella]
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.

[Troy]
Gonna run
while we’re young

[Troy & Gabriella]
And keep the faith
Keep the faith!

[Everyone]
Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run
while we’re young
and keep the faith

Everyday
from right now,
gonna use our voices and scream out loud
Take my hand;
together we
will celebrate,

Everyday!
Live every day!
[Gabriella: Ohhh, everyday!]
Love everyday!
[Gabriella: Ohhh, everyday!]
Live everyday!
[Troy: Na, na, everyday!]
Love everyday!
[Troy: Ohh, yeah, yeah!]
[Gabriella: I'll sing everyday!]
Everyday!
[Troy: Everyday!]
Everyday!
[Gabriella: Everyday!]
Everyday!
[Troy: Everyday!]
Everyday!
Everyday!
[Troy: Everyday!]
Everyday!

[Troy]
Everyday

[Gabriella]
Everyday (yeah)

2007-10-21T23:50:00.000-07:00

My Only Hope & Love

I heard 2 new songs from the mp3 today.
thanks to ernest and ervine, I feel emo once again.
sigh... feel like bursting out into tears just to ease the pain for awhile.
it happens all the time, anytime and anywhere. And today was the unfortunate one.
shouldn't elaborate too much on it, maybe listening to a song or two may help.
Shall go off now then, I’ll blog more when there's interesting news about me.
however, I’m a little happier to know that I’m getting my jersey tmr. yeah, finally a school jersey for my floorball team! wonder what number i’ll get?

Only Hope

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Only Love

2 a.m. and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say - try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough, if we learn to trust

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dream just one more chance
Don't let this be our good-bye

2007-10-15T22:45:00.000-07:00

背叛

开心伤心谁来决定
用尽真心却得不到任何回应
心如此安静

记性注定像个刺青
刺青内心一度沉睡的旧感情
如此不安宁

牵着你的左手
你右手悬空
仿佛是有所保留

握着你的右手你有话不说
隔了层沉默
你慢慢疏离我

无声的背叛
原来失去是那么简单
你是你(我)要的
为何变成一个陌生人
来陪伴

对你的背叛
是回忆要时间去替换
我尽力勇敢但如果你已下判我
只能说遗憾

坚定决定谁会关心
用尽全力
却得不到同样回应
何时能平静

耐性扫兴不断提醒提起内心
还不确定的新感情
如何能同行

牵着你的左手你右手悬空
一定是有所保留
握着你的右手你绝口不说
隔一层沉默
我慢慢疏离我

无声的背叛
原来失去是那么简单
你我是你要的
不要这场用猜疑交手
的冷战

对你的背叛是不要个陌生人陪伴
我尽力勇敢
但如果你已下判我
只能说遗憾

对你的背叛
是不要个陌生人陪伴
我尽力勇敢
但如果你已下判我
只能说遗憾

<3 me, <3 me not?

2007-10-08T21:55:00.000-07:00

The Unconfessed Truth Campus Crusade Camp Reflections

senior crusaders

~Prelude~
So coincidental that few days ago, while I was just standing outside the music room waiting for choir practice, I bumped into several crusade friends and got to know about this camp through them. It’s not their fault actually for not informing about this, it just happened that my floor ball training clashes with every fellowship and they might have thought I might be too busy for things?
It was only till the very last minutes that I’ve make decision to attend the camp, reluctantly perhaps? Was still in the stages of consideration because of my tight schedule.
Arrived only on the third day, as I was away in another camp for the first two days. At first, thought that I couldn’t blend in well with the rest of the people, having come so late but was glad that those and most who have known me through camp welcomed me with open arms and loving hearts. Got assigned to a group, SELF-CONTROL! and with Constance as my group leader and the other members of the team, my days were never boring.

the holy bible

~Sharing God’s love~
On day 3, the team went out of the chalet for a mission—spread his love and to share with people about the gospel. Met up with them as we set off to Simei. Having done it before in the previous camp and thus was assigned to one of the freshies. With such an important role on hand, I began to treat everything more seriously and so I started revising on the way there, having not attended much of the evangelistic workshop and lessons.
It feels so great to be back, doing God’s work, spoken to quite a few teenagers during the 2 hours given. One is a christian, and I’m glad that he grew more in faith after speaking to him. One accepted Christ, seeing him wanting to know so much about Him and believing in Christianity, I spent much more time on him, went through a prayer with him and also gave him the book so that he can read on his own. Besides these successes, there were rejections too. There was two of it. Though that was the case, it never draws me back in trying out more; sowing seeds into people’s heart is our only task and leave the rest to His plans.

thanks guys!

~Soul-searching game & extended worship~
On the final night, we played the Underground Church game after a rather high extended worship. It was wonderful, everyone deeply into worship, devoted hearts, songs sang, risen hands, kneeling knees… never have I experience something like this before, hope that my church will practice it someday. The game was a dirty and tiring one and I was feeling kind of emotional after everything ended. The game allows you to experience how people were ill-treated when they spoke up for their faith. The torture were horrible and the impact that has brought upon me was too great, was crying out to God and also at the same time questioning myself, am I willing to die for his faith? and stuff… It was certainly to test your love for Him and his people. Gathered in a circle, prayed and cried together. It ended with warm hugs with everyone, felt so much better than.

good buddies!

~Resolution~
God works in mysterious ways. Amen, he does, but he ALWAYS works. Christianity is the HARDEST life to lead, but in a world of physical wear & tear, Christianity is the only REAL thing on this earth. I learnt so much from this camp either from the talks on LOVE/LIFE/LORD or the sharing and praying with the brothers in CCC. Not forgetting those encouraging sisters too.I LOVE CAMPUS CRUSADE and will be nothing but a joy to see them in campus. I'm gonna let God use me from now onwards, be it in this cca or in church. CHRISTIANITY is not a RELIGION. It's a RELATIONSHIP. Campus Crusade is not a cca. It's the <3... .... hehehe

smiles after the camp...

2007-10-02T23:30:00.000-07:00

1st October

WOW! It has been an eventful period for me since i last blogged. I can't wait to share with you all about the things that had happened during this period.

Firstly, it was friday and after choir, I headed to KAP with my choirmates for a time of rest and relaxtion at Macs. But we didnt stay long as I had to make my way to Holland Village to meet up with a bunch of friends to celebrate Ernest's birthday who was treating us at ESKIBAR!!!!! It was an awesome get together as we drank Vodka and Bacardi 151. Lol I was pretty sure we were very high cause of that. We drank 2 rounds of wine before we decided to have our supper at a nearby coffee shop. We ordered one bottle of tiger, yet another round of beer. We got pretty high after the 3rd round of drink, till the extent I called several people such as Rachel, didn't know what did i said on the phone till the next day. Hailed down a cab home, was rather a wonderful experience and thanks for the treat bro.

Monday came, Jolynn had a chalet and invited many of the choirmates to stay, that included myself, Weenee, Jiabao, Shah, Joseph, Ray, Catherine, Rachel and Teng Qing. We had alot of fun in the camp having a barbecue, playing Mahjong and poker cards, watching movies such as Death Note 2 and playing night basketball. We stayed up almost the whole night through doing these things. I had fun barbecuing but there was the issue of the fire always going out and resulting in a lack of food being cooked so me and Joseph decided to do ourselves and the rest a favour by trying our best to cook on our own and letting the rest take a rest and to constantly fan the fire. We had so much fun and it started to get humid that we took off our shirts so that we could at least cool ourselves down a little bit. Besides doing the barbecuing, I did join in for mahjong. It was kind of a new experience for me as I hardly play and it was some time ago that I actually had a feel of those tiles. Then in the early hours of the morning, we played basketball in the park and which was so much fun as the breeze blew. I was quite emo during that time and made people worried. *oops*

The next day, we had steamboat lunch and after that, we tried teaching a few others how to play the game of Bridge after we were getting bored of playing "Dai Ti" and mahjong again. In the afternoon, we were preparing to leave for choir in the night but we missed the bus and had to wait for another 15mins so we ended up being late for choir. But along the way, in the train, something hilarious happened. Jiabao placed his things beside Joseph but went to sit somewhere else. Then midway through the journey, me and Joseph were sleeping with Jiabao's things next to Joseph when a malay lady asked if the things beside us were ours. The entire row of passenger was looking at Joseph and I was still very blur after just being awoken from my slumber. But Joseph answered yes and cleared the items for the lady to sit. For a moment, I was pretty sure the people might have been thinking that there could have been a bomb on board. HAHAHA… imagine us, terrorists.
Choir practice was fun, learned a few new songs. They were nice and with a such high pitch even in my talking, was asked to give a try in singing descent for Joy to the World song. After choir, we had our supper at Kap yet again for the 3rd or 4th consecutive time. Left there early, needed to go home early to pack my stuff for crusade camp tomorrow. Initially, I wanted to sleep over at Joseph's house so that my traveling to Tampines tomorrow will be easier. Many reasons resulted in me pulling out.

Anyway, I might being joining the acapalla group in my choir which practise songs requiring no back up music. Aca is fun!! Cept that it'll make me like even busier than I already am. X)
Off to catch some sleep.

Happy belated Birthday too to my sister, Pei Ling!

2007-09-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

200 days since we parted..

昨天的我们

感觉依然那么真

今天的眼神

它已经有一点不诚恳

我沉醉那么深

比谁对你都还认真

为何你对我不再心疼

从信任到容忍

今天的你们

听说已经是情人

我不想追问

因为我相信你有分寸

你吻过我的唇

说过伴我一世一生

只怪时间冲淡了缘份

空留一些余温

忍心认我爱你十分泪七分

你却毫无眷恋地转身

不能爱也不敢恨

无法平息的伤痕

冷眼看我爱你十分泪七分

从此离分不再有温存

谁能爱你比我深

感情不能两头分

2007-09-25T13:05:00.000-07:00

Yet Another Busy Week

Just came back from a vacation trip from Malaysia and my busy routine kicks in again!

It so happened that, Jing ya and Sha came over to my house the other day and it was then that I decided to join the choir. Went for their first practice and was told right away that we will be involved in one of the concert by Singapore Polytechnic choir. Can you imagine, a performance at a big theatre just weeks after joining the choir?! However everything went quite smoothly and I even managed to make a couple of new friends there.

The next couple of days were filled with sectionals, rehearsals and more rehearsals. I should say we met up almost everyday to practice on our own 2 songs and 2 combined pieces with SP choir. It was tough; spent almost the entire day to rehearse on the whole procedure to prevent any mistakes from occurring on that important day. The president of SP choir who is also the overall in charge of the performance was mean at times, but I guess it was because he wanted a good performance that night, besides who doesn't?
Putting aside those negative issues, we did enjoy the process of rehearsing, and with such crazy people in our choir around, we were never get bored as it was fun being with them. Writing till here, I would like to compliment about lao shi's teaching. She is good, we learnt many things from her as she taught us all the essentials to make us good choir singers breathing techniques, how to sing in the correct manner, facial expressions, etc…

With such a busy day, thought I could get some rest upon reaching home but "No" was the answer. Had to finish up a project by Thursday as it is our dateline and there will be a presentation on that day itself too. So, with little time left and my busy schedule, friends in my group could only meet up at late in the night to do our work. So they suggested coming to my house to finish up on the project, and so faz, xiaolong and albert came over that night. Faz left early, xiaolong and albert slept over my house. It was quite productive as we managed to complete ¾ of the work being assigned, spend the rest of the time on msn where a few of us from the trip chatted throughout the night.

Moving on to Saturday, meet up with ERS members' right after my final rehearsal at SP that afternoon. We went to our beloved Evan’s birthday party at Chevrons. Besides us, there were his other friends from secondary school, junior college, army, relatives too. We had lots of fun there as we got to interact with people of different kinds. The atmosphere was way too romantic when we sang the birthday song with the accompaniment of the saxophone. Cutting of the birthday cake and photo taking were next as that almost sums up the day. I decided not to sleep over as performance is tomorrow, need lots of rest tonight.

Finally, the big day came. Arriving at Victoria Concert Hall, it was such a huge and grand place for a concert.
Sha and I were dressed in all black – black shirt and pants, with grey ties. We looked sharp :)

People from different walks of life coming together in unison, singing in one harmony. Though it may be my first time with the choir, there was certainly a strong bond between all of us. Guess that's an advantage of having a small choir. People know each other well, thus we are able to communicate and blend our voices well.
Backstage was so chaotic! People were warming up, ordering and definitely dressing up! Sha kept nudging me because he said I looked very emo. Haha well that is something that only I know! Enough with emo and back to the concert.
Stepping onto the wooden stage, looking into the audience with different faces and expressions. Now that was the real thing, after so much practices and rehearsals, finally the real thing. Lao shi conducted us very well, we just love the way she conducts the choir. Very engaging and easy to catch, though I felt nervous, somewhat I feel happy and also excited. Eyes were on us, Ngee Ann Polytechnic Choir. Personally felt that we sang good, well from the warm applause, definitely we did great. I know that there was only one expression in the audience- Satisfaction.
The combined pieces, simple gifts and the quest unending are very challenging pieces, but we did well. Like we sang delightfully throughout, and I know Sha was very happy and excited. Not to mention he sings well =P. Anyway, the concert was over and I was relieved that we did well and received pleasing remarks from friends and teachers, like Ms Khartini =

Having said all that, we had another gathering session the day after the concert. Met up and Lot 1 and catch a movie right after a heavy dinner at Pizza Hut. The movie UnderDog was fairly good, as there's no climax to the show, and ending could be predicted, with a superhero what you could you expect other than a happy ending? Dots... Well, went for ice-cream and lots of random shots around Lot 1 shopping center was what we did after the show. Everyone got so high, me especially... oh wells, what a way to end the week. =)

next few weeks is gonna be busy again for me. Camps, gatherings, etc...
for tonight and tomorrow, will be celebrating lantern festival with different group of friends, so do check out for my upcoming post.

backstage!

tenor boys

sha and me

=)

happy family.

2007-09-17T22:30:00.000-07:00

188 and counting..

It's not like shedding tears
Will be able to bring back the past
We alighted from the train
And gently brushed off the dust

It's a matter of propriety
It's a matter of willingness
Time flies like a shooting star
We never have enough time to make our wishes

We used to share laughter
Used to hold hands standing side by side
We walked into affinity
We've watched the past fade like smoke

It's a matter of loving
It's a matter of being indebted
There are countless waves in the midst of life's changes
We are forever saying goodbyes

Goodbye, that person whom I once gave my heart to
Perhaps ten years from now we will meet again
If an embrace can give a person warmth
Then let my song take my place at your side

Caring about that person whom I once gave my heart to
We have our own separate tomorrows
If the faraway place cannot offer you hope
Remember that my heart still keeps a light for you
Keeps a light for you

The person i once gave my heart to

2007-09-15T22:15:00.000-07:00

PHOTOS!

odd one out

jump high!

emo again =s

my group

xiaolong and me in the greenery

our new outfit (=

reunion @ ngee ann city

<333333 everyone!

2007-09-12T22:45:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps,

Had lots of fun today being out with friends from the trip. We arranged to meet for another gathering today after returning back from Malaysia a couple of days ago.
Sha and I being the organizer informed everyone about today's outing and the response was quite good, with twelve people able to make it.

Met Sha couple of hours earlier, got him to accompany me to collect my paycheck at Holland village. Got there, collected the slip and lunch was at burger king. It gave us this satisfaction that the fast food we were craving for so much back in Malaysia. So much so for the food, make our way to plaza Singapura to meet up with the rest of them.

Agreed to have our movies watched at THE CATHAY, we headed there on foot and went straight to the ticket booth for our purchase of tickets. We’d chosen the movie "no reservation" as we more votes wins the pick. Speaking about movies, cinemas, it has been some time since I last watched a movie, perhaps five or six months ago? A place filled with sweet memories, loving scenes and of course those comfortable seats seem so unfamiliar nowadays. Well, left that thought aside for a time being before someone gets emo about it and lose attention on the show.

Dine at Seoul Garden in Ngee Ann city and though it was kind of costly. It proves that the food was worth every penny. I shall say the food was fantastic and we ate a lot. IQ questions by everyone and those funny like teasing and jokes between Jermaine and Edward brought us much entertainment that we were never bored. In that process, went for an interview with soon teck and were so glad that we're now hired there. With much experience in the service line, I'm sure that it would be a new challenge once again and learning of more things, quite looking forward to it.

As time flies, it's time to say our goodbyes and home sweet home. So glad that i never miss out on such a fun night.
My eyes are shutting soon, going to post and go to bed. Night people, see your guys tomorrow! And guys do also pray for my selections for floor ball on Thursday. Thanks.

2007-09-09T23:55:00.000-07:00

Seremban Trip

Day 1
Woke up super early in the morning to travel to tanjong pagar railway station and caught a train to the place where we are heading to which is seremban, Malaysia. The journey was like 6 hours, so long that we were almost bored to death, but thankfully we didn’t cos cards saved our day. Played murderer, the game was so fun; named myself the "silent killer", assassinate people with a blink of an eye. =) Upon reaching, villagers picked us up at the station and drove us to the community hall for allocation of our families.
I was allocated to one of them and was already dusk when we reached their place. Had a light dinner before returning to the community hall for more discussions about the interviews, filming and stuff we’re supposed to do the next few days. Had an early night that day, more to come on the second…

Day 2
It was great in the morning, weather was perfect, enjoying every moment out there in the open, felt the breeze of the cooling wind and the amazing sunrise was perfect to kick off with the day.
Had a hearty breakfast, was real happy that food found so common back home like "Nasi Lemak and Roti Prata" were served, that I can have some even when abroad. Sigh… I'm starting to miss home!
Next, we set off to some museum which was told that it was used to be the sultan's palace. Got stuck in this stuffy van for 45mins throughout the ride, though the heat was killing, chatting and crapping and high school musical 2 make us gotten over everything.
Walking in to a palace, it doesn't seem as grand as what I've thought. Everything in there was in royal yellow, and lots of item was on display, and so the Minang cultures we're researching on well better off understand. Not forgetting that spooky roof, heard noises coming from there, was said to be bats or rats, whatever it is, it's kind of scary to even step into that place. Well, so much for that palace, we moved on and arrived at a pit-stop, as told there is a huge waterfall somewhere in the mountains, didn't have time to reached the submit, so just hang around the bottom of the river. Bought some light snacks there as we head back to the village for more lessons.
After dinner, being in team B, dance was our first lesson and was learning some traditional dance that night from those young Malay girls. Some of the moves were hard and complex and it's also hard to catch the beat but after much practice, we were able to dance to the groove.
Returned back home, I was so exhausted that after bathing, I fell asleep on my bed.

Day 3
Nothing much on the third day though, since morning was just doing interviewing, filming and some photo shooting of the village till about slightly over lunch time. It was kind of cool when you know you are doing all this for the production of a documentary, some sort like Mediacorp. But when it comes to handling of stuff, we are so noob as compared to those professionals. Besides, everything has its first time too, no exception for all this either. However, we had to call it a day after two interviews as we were too tired to carry on.
Returned home for a nap and we were off to someone's place for traditional dinner. Everyone was in their traditional clothes and I too was in my sarong. In that dinner, villages taught us the traditional way of eating and stuff. It was kind of a new experience for me, as we people always use utensils for our meals. Next, we were off to the hall for some talk conducted by an adat specialist. Like what Sha mentioned, it was very poetic which in turn makes it so boring. And despite all that thoughts that were going through in our head, we must admit something is learned out of it, a lot of questions answered too and that indeed brings a great help to our project. That was all for the third day.

Day 4
Have been always looking forward to the fourth day cos the term "river trekking" makes me so excited about that particular event, like some sort of excursion thingy where you can get to explore and at the same time experiencing the nature of wildlife. And indeed, it was fun. The five Musketeers at the back of the pack were the coolest among us all, singing along the way as we slowly make our way to the final destination. Anyway, Kavidah lost her slippers on the way; the whole team had to stick our hands into the pool of sand searching for the lost slippers. It was not an easy task for us as the gushing water kept flowing towards us and perhaps that might be a possibility that it might be flushed away downstream already. In the end, we gave up as with so much effort and still couldn’t find that missing slippers. The personal then brought us to the first pit-stop where we find ourselves surrounded by boulders of clay, applied some onto my face as it was said to have facial purposes.
Finally arrived at this place, where there is a small pool. Everyone was so happy that we jumped inside. Moved a log into the center of that pool and had games too. Several people suffered bites from leeches, I was lucky to escape from all those pain. Those creeps are disgusting man. Shoots! We headed back to the village on foot as there wasn't any transport available.
Night time was chaklempong class for my team which was a swop from the dance. This time round, instead of working physically, we had to work mentally and that is to memorize the rhythm and the melody of the song. Playing the Malay instruments isn’t as simple as what I'd thought. But for my case, having a musical foundation indeed helps a little and I'm able to pick things up faster than the rest.
Had a small accident on the way back, as I knocked against sha's bike, and fortunately there were no injuries.

Day 5
More group discussion and interviews today, everything looks more organized now as information gathered are complied and were drafted for submission.
Handicraft session in the afternoon as Keann was missing among us because of a pretty bad fall on the way to the hall by bicycle. Anyway, wasn't really very good at these things as I could recall, took days to finished a bottle of origami stars the other time.
More of dancing practices in the night for the upcoming performance on the last night. Rehearsal throughout the night did brushes us up and we looked set and ready for tomorrow's performance. And for your info, I was appointed to be the lead dancer, so excited about it. Together with me, two friends of mine taught the village girls Latin in exchange and had some bonding session after it to sum the day up.

Day 6
Today was great as finally, we will have some leisure time to ourselves for shopping. Went to nilai 3 and some other places to shop, didn’t buy much though.
Had a late lunch and were off for some touring around the village where we'll have a chance to experience rubber tapping and the visitation of the goat farm which we seldom see back home. Sigh man, Keann fell again. This time round it hurts big time, you could see scratches all over the body and the bleeding just never stops. He's in a terrible shape I should say, and were so unlucky to have so many unfortunate things happening to him. It's very painful i guess.
Moving on to cultural night, it was fun. Kavidah was made the bride and Xiaolong the groom. We had a traditional wedding for them and a ceremony too. The dance, Chaklempong, and Chan Mali Chan performance by us was the highlight. After everything's over, had some light refreshments in the hall and photo takings, went back home right away to rest as we were so tired after such a long day.

Day 7
Last day came; we had a sending off ceremony in the hall and more photo takings. We had exchange of gifts and hugs, handshakes too from all of them as a farewell to us.
I would like to say a big thank you to my foster parents and people who had brought me joy during this trip and those whom had help me one way or the other, really enjoyed the stay there. And from the bottom of my heart, I would say you people are great. Would visit your someday next month with people of the trip, perhaps during Hari Raya? So till then, bye!!!
Photos to be uploaded pretty soon after compilation.

Signing off with much love.
=)

2007-08-21T21:00:00.000-07:00

Rhythm of the Rain

Listen to the rhythm of the falling rain,

Telling me just what a fool I've been.

I wish that it would go and let me cry in vain,

And let me be alone again.

Now the only girl I've ever loved has gone away.

Looking for a brand new start!

But little does she know that when she left that day.

Along with her she took my heart.

Rain, please tell me, now does that seem fair

For her to steal my heart away when she don't care

I can't love another, when my heart's somewhere far away.

Rain, won't you tell her that I love her so

Please ask the sun to set her heart a glow

Rain in her heart and let the love we know start to grow.

2007-08-18T23:55:00.000-07:00

Happy Happy Day!

The picture says it all, shouldn't elaborate too much on that. Must get back on to revision pretty soon as i have 3 papers to sit for this couple of days.
In all, we had a great day at the Singapore Discovery Center with everyone. Highlights of today's trip was the stop at the shooting gallery and the singapore toons section. The china friends of ours were so glad that they are able to have a feel of the SAR-21 for that shooting game battle. Then, make our way to the singapore toons corner, found rather interesting and beautiful pictures of comics cartoons drawn by singapore famous artists. Those pictures describes it the history of singapore, singaporeans's living and the mutiples obstacles we'd overcomed before reaching this stage of success. Lots of photo taking session and i'd selected a few to be uploaded shortly.
Proceeded on to the main exhibit hall then to the 3-d cinema for a short movie clip. Am so glad to have gotten 2 "CHOPE" tissues from the souvenir shop. So cool!
Had our dinner at tanglin halt and then to church for the feng shui talk. The speaker was so good in his sermon that I fell in love with it. Decided to buy one of his book to read more his articles on that. And besides that, I'm looking forward to listening to his sermon in tomorrow's service.

That's all for the day folks, back to revison..

Group Photo =)

2007-08-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

想听的话

慢慢地撤出忧伤

你在转角处等他

能用声高放地唱

我可以整天对你不牵挂

这场爱不会开花

我情书却割舍不下

明知你爱的是他

却还是学不会摆脱这挣扎

想听的话你说给了他

我的快乐从此蒸发

如果同时爱的代价哪相信

想撒个什么谎

想听的话得不到回答

我却还在独自装傻

回答时我的脸颊好让你看不见

我眼角的变化

2007-08-13T21:45:00.000-07:00

the future lies in our own hands

This happened a couple of days ago and since i'm free that day, decided to meet up with ervine, elton and my sis for some K-Box session. I was in a rather low mood as it has always been the case and that i was hoping that singing will do abit of healing. As such, i felt better. Though in that little cosy room, i could feel the emoness in there and i mean among us too. Certainly, everyone feels the same way as i do. We're all outta of love.
Sometimes really wonder, why can some people taste the sweetness of love while the others the bitterness of it? It isn't fair. rahhh!!!
Despite all those negative things that had affected us over these days, we're not to be beaten. But instead, work harder to acheive our goal in life..

Coming together is a beginning,
staying together is a process,
and working together is a success.

2007-08-09T23:45:00.000-07:00

Celebrating Singapore 42th Birthday

This year, instead of the usual National Stadium, the ceremony was held at a brand new location and brand new style, the Marina Bay's floating platform. Besides all that, there were many highlights that were new too and was only brought into the celebration this year.

Some of the highlights were commandos rappelling down the Benjamin Shears Bridge, armed soldiers and men from the Special Operations Command getting up close and personal with the spectators in the gallery and marching of the guard-of-honour contigents right from suntec convection center. Manage to capture some the marching and also the fireworks display later in the night. It was simply wonderful and indeed unforgettable too.

Thus, this year ndp has certainly grown and was brought to a higher level as we're glad to say that citizens could expect even more thrills in the upcoming years. As for this year, it was great and definetely a magical and memorable year for me. Hooray! Happy Birthday Singapore!

2007-08-06T18:08:00.000-07:00

你怎么舍得我难过

对你的思念是一天又一天
孤单的我还是没有改变
美丽的梦何时才能出现
亲爱的你好想再见你一面

秋天的风一阵阵的吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受

最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走

最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过

2007-08-05T20:20:00.000-07:00

要等候

人生有许多难关要过

自古是情关最让人难受

也许我命中注定情海中颠簸

为你我付出这么的多

却让我痛到有苦不能说

因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火

请你告诉我爱上你是一个错

别让我失魂落魄着了魔

解开我的迷惑

收起你的冷漠

你怎忍心这样做

请你告诉我爱上你是一个错

别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞

伤痛已经太多

心也早已伤透

但我想再为她而等候

2007-07-30T23:45:00.000-07:00

List of events

In today’s post, firstly I would like to comment about our BBQ at East Coast part the other day. It was specially arranged for the committee involved in the world famine camp.
We had great food at the BBQ. We also met the sponsors and helpers from other organizations. Some of the primers members were there too; the clique we’re always in. Only Mak, Yee shan, Shu xian, Chen Kun, Vic and I were able to come today. It was a surprise to see the seniors as we thought they won’t be down with us due to involvement in the dinner & dance preparation.

On the 20th last month, as part of our i&e project, a group of us from Ngee Ann Poly visited the orphanage “Melrose” located near the school. As the theme suggests, we decided on that because it has got something to do with community work and therefore we carried out this little project. The objective was to have a day of fun with the orphans, foster stronger bonding between them and us and most importantly, to learn something out of it.
Upon reaching, we started off with self introduction and some games. We played childhood games like “musical chair, dog&bone, blow wind blow, etc...” Never had I enjoyed playing such games! The kids there were great, cute and lovable. Though we encountered some problems during that event, we were able to resolve it. I’m sure everyone has learnt to be more patient after this event, right? And in conclusion, the whole event was a success and I would like to thank my group members for making this event possible. Big thanks to Magdalene, Clarrisa, Yu Hui and Si Min. =)

Next, I’ll be sharing about the next event which is the CAC captain’s ball competition. I will spare you the details. Here’s a brief summary of the event. Basically, congrats to the juniors who were crown champs for the first time in our history book after defeating Yishun Methodist in the finals! A pat on the back too for the seniors, though we didn’t make it to the quarters; We tried our best! Though slightly disappointed, we’ll be looking forward to next year competition, being able to perform and get better results. Anyway, thank you guys for coming down for the competition and also the supporters who have been cheering for us the whole time. It surely had boosted our confidence and agility during the game. Love that, “qc spirit” man! Whoo!
3 cheers for everyone…

do look out for more updates on the post coming up and photos will be uploaded soon…

2007-07-17T23:55:00.000-07:00

Back after such a long while…

It’s been a long while since I last update my post. And today, finally found some precious little time I could spend on my blog. This post of mine will be covering what I had gone through these past few weeks.

Firstly, I would sadly announce that I’d join faith Baptist church. Having attended the past few services, I’d made up my mind to stay that for good. Once in awhile, will visit my beloved qcmc, a place where I grew up in. Of course, in the very beginning, it’s hard adapting to their worship style and all, but with the grace of God, I finally did. It has been enjoyable and fun praising the Lord, and also studying his Words. *Two thumbs up!* Hooray!

Shifting back to school life, it’s had always been busy, a word to describe it? I would say “hectic”. Tutorials after tutorials, practical after practical, assignment and projects keep coming and we have to complete as and when the dateline is set. I could possibly say, every other day it’s just as important, no missing of lessons or whatsoever. Rest or break time only comes when it’s time for bed, a few hours of sleep and back to the normal routine again. =s
5 projects on hand, 2 dues this week, 2 next week, 1 after the next. In addition, late august, there’s 4 papers to sit for. Pray that I won’t collapse half-way through the process.

CCAs aren’t a factor that makes me so tired I suppose. But rather, I’ve found myself enjoying in their events, trainings, etc… Every time upon hearing there’s event coming up for regardless any cca, it certainly lifts my spirits up. The times we spent together was certainly essential and it did gave me some boost, a time to relax myself and to take some time off from those programming and other IT related stuff.
Besides that, trainings are as important too. To build up our stamina and brush up our skills, we had very tough physical training on Tuesday and skills on Thursday. And even though sometimes I felt like giving up, I didn’t, having the goal in my mind which is to get into the IVP team to represent Ngee Ann for upcoming matches. For the jersey and team! Scarecrows all the way.
Besides that, attended the dedication service organized by BB primers which in turns spurred me on to join fcbc. A few more events coming up such as the WVC appreciation bbq and the 4th anniversary dinner & dance would definitely be fun. ERS too will be coming up with events, and the tee we’ll be getting makes me feel so excited.

But of course, there will be happy and sad times. After such a long period of time, the healing did come but to less effect. Though that was the case, through this little setback, God allows me to discover many things in life that you and I wouldn’t have thought of, lessons after lessons He guided me, taught me about lot of stuff and build me up as whom I am today. For one thing I know, God never fails and He had already drawn His beautiful plans for all of us. Something I have learned. haha.
And thereby, I entrust everything of me to Him, to grow more in Him and to serve him well. All I need now is Your healing hands to find back those remaining lost pieces in my heart, to give me the strength for my daily needs and most importantly to grow in Your words.

Anyway, glad to have made so many friends throughout this few weeks. Thanks for the love, care and concern your had given me. God bless all of you all! <3

2007-07-06T20:00:00.000-07:00

Long Waited Post

I am looking forward to more happening events as I settle into a new semester.

This blog was left untouched for a week or so that why I am here to update you guys about the recent events I’d attended during this past week. This week has been great. The night cycle trip with fellow primers people was way beyond fun. I am pretty glad that this trip was not just plainly cycling; it was bonding and catching up session with the other fellow primers people. The respond was much better than what I’d expected. Furthermore, I saw a lot of familiar faces turned out that night. It was really amazing to see my classmate in school and my old schoolmates too. We were divided into groups and leaving at different timing with the interval of 10minutes each. I was counted as one of the fortunate one to be under Bernice and Wun Wei. Our group coordination was quite well throughout the journey and most importantly we had fun being with each other company. It was really a nice experience for me as I made so many friends and we became rather good friends since then.

The journey from east coast to change village was far that why they had pit-stops here and there for some mini-games as well as break for us. I remembered there was one stop which was just somewhere along the stretch of fences of change airport. As we were so excited to see planes land and depart from the air field, the stop there was longer than before. Suddenly, a thought strikes on me. This was the place where people come to send their loved one off, just like the drama series. Its either they can’t make it on time to send to the departure hall or they rather be here than there to see their loved one off. After that, we headed off to the next destination which took 3 hours time. We stayed there for quite some time, at the same time we tried to mingle around to know more people from the trip other than my group mates. Due to long hours of traveling, we will all drained off thats why wun wei tried to wake everyone up by starting off with some pretty interesting game where we have to start alert in order to get hit by him. After this game, everyone seems to be more awake before moving on to some inter-group games. We were back on the bikes to east coast. I was pretty glad being the one encouraging, pushing everyone as we paddled without stopping at the back of the pack as we will way behide schedule. Due to the team spirit, I proudly announce that we completed the ride and came in first. After our breakfast at Mac, I decided to head home to rest after a series of camping and night cycling.

These 2 weeks of holiday has come to an end and we are back to normal school lesson. The first week of the semester seems to be hectic for me due to the heavy workload from projects and assignments that was assigned to me. I almost went crazy upon receiving it. To my surprise, I enjoyed my lessons and perhaps begin to fall in love with it. Exam is just around the corner, and with that in mind I know I had to get down to some serious work on my revision soon.

For Your Information: I’ll be working at Sushi Tei restaurant t Holland, so you guys can feel free to drop by to say hi if you happen to be around there.
And also, photos to be uploaded on friendster.

2007-06-20T18:30:00.000-07:00

A Fruitful Holiday

It all started on last Thursday where I had my first camp. It was the Green Fusion Camp organized by club environmental ranger’s society. My first impression of the camp was that it would be a boring one, and so I treated it lightly for it won't be too much of a difference compared to previous camps. One main reason why we killed that thought was because of the programs and activities they had installed for us. It really surprises me as I never thought that we would be visiting those places and stuff.
On the first day, it was a long journey to the HB Goat Farm and the road was quite bumpy, making us real sick. We had no choice, but to endure! Upon reaching there, we were invited inside and one of the staff brought us to this milk processing station where we can have a look at how the goat is milked, etc. Next, we proceed on to the feeding station after we tasted the milk. Some of my friends even bought dried grass from the stall there,just to have the experience of feeding an animal. It was so fun, looks like everyone is enjoying themselves. Took a group photo under the hot scorching sun before we left for the next location.
Next stop was the visit to the Newater plant. Quite educational and beneficial for all of us as we were taught how and where our water source comes from and the processes of it and by doing so, we may not have to be dependent on other resources for water supplies. I found the whole trip quite interesting and surely,I personally thinks that I had gain pretty much knowledge about everything. And yet again, we had our group photo taking session before heading back to campus for more activities.
Firstly, we kicked off with some ice-breaker games within the group and through that, I'd got a chance to know some of them which then we became good friends. For example, mak and yeeshan. Next up was dinner and treasure hunt at night which we came in second.
Wash up and off we went to Al Almin's roti prata stall opposite beauty world center for supper. The 7 of us( Sherwin, mak, mingjie, chen kun, yee shan, hui shan and me) walked there. Got back to the our bunks only at 1+a.m. We didn’t went straight to bed and instead stayed up to listen ghost stories. And only went to bed at 3a.m.
Next day, was just the visiting of the incineration plant and back for de-brief session and that was the end of the first camp.

On Saturday, I proceed on to the World Famine Camp held at Republic Polytechnic. It was a wonderful sight to see so many participants in the camp, roughly 700 of them I guess. Hmm, the fun part came when it was the mass game; everyone was roaming everywhere, stations to stations. And for me, I was put in charge for the health department. It was the busiest among them all, as people kept coming in for treatment. All in all, it was tiring but fun after all.
The committees went for supper after the game ended. Traveled to Mac, had a quick bite and back to the campus for more activities or wasn't that any? We just laze around; play cards, chat, msn, listen to music and stuff till morning.
We were dismissed at 7a.m. But then only hui shi, yee shan and me went for breakfast at Mac. Saw the rest of the seniors there too. Accompany yee shan home before heading to church for Sunday service. Soccer match in the afternoon against the adults at Ngee Ann. But unfortunately, we lost 2-0. Nevertheless, I felt the team did a pretty nice job and everyone performed well that day. A pat on the back… =)
Went home to pack my stuff for dance camp the next day. Anyway, HAPPY'S FATHER DAY too!

Next will be Dance Camp, will not elaborate too much on that as my post is already long enough. But some main highlights of it were that, I was appointed as the group leader and yeah, brought the whole group together for practices for our performance and also the games. So delighted to have this opportunity to play this role. Anyway, dance camp was fun. Basically, it's all about dance practices throughout the 3 days with just a little of games. And would you believe it?, the dance steps we choreograph came in first,and won the top prize. Yeah, JIVE ALL THE WAY!
And thanks to everyone for being there for me,especially my group members. Love you guys, in particular they are ( Greg, Evonne, Gino, Serf, Justin and of course my partner Jasmine). Remember to meet up someday to do some catching up…

Night cycling later in the night at East Coast Park, off to catch some sleep wills blog again tomorrow.
Anyway, a big thanks to all my GLs, for Green Fusion Camp they are Shu Hui and Christopher, World Famine Camp will be Wan Yan and Dance Camp will be Pamela, Darryl and Faiz.

miss my <3

2007-06-13T21:45:00.000-07:00

If only I could go?

My post starts on a Saturday when I last posted my entry here.
It was a bright morning, skies were clear, weather was good, and breeze was cooling. Everything looked perfect for a little exercise, and so I asked ervine out for a jog and basketball. We didn't stayed there long though, went back not long after.
Back home, quickly got myself cleaned up and dressed up before heading down to elton's house there the salon for a haircut. As usual, when it comes to me , both peipei and lady boss will have something to say or comment about, can’t stand those words coming out from their mouths, so annoying and irritating. Zzz!
Was supposed to call the the boys for tuanqi, I did but the plan failed. And instead, everyone turned up for supper only. How disappointing it is but I have to accept it for what it is.
For my case, I went qing tuan and for our fellowship session we did video screening. A message delivered by john piper, it was great after all. I was deeply touched and moved by his words as the whole content really matched what I am going through right now,tribulations and stuff... Not only that, I have begun to fall in love with his sermons and have now begun downloading them on the net for personal needs. Have been listening them all this while and I really do hope that I can complete 7 years of sermons by this year starting from the year 2000 which I started on last night. All this will definitely help in my spiritual life, a spiritual walk with him through the bible.
Something taken out from last night's sermon. it says, "Christian living means living on the word of God". And at that moment, I really did feel God speaking to me and what He said was to work in me right now, to change me for the better, to feed me with spiritual food which I am hungering for, to prepare myself for the battle with the evil thoughts and the evil doings and also to heal my broken heart.
Sorry, anti-climax, hehe, back to supper. It was fun at Holland V, a wonderful place to hang out at night. Pretty enjoyed myself there though the place was crowded. Anyway, ervine thinks that my brain has been damaged probably because I emoed too much, as I wasn't acting very normal at that point in time. Maybe it was really the case, can't recall much. XD

The Sunday itself, went shao tuan for worship and the J2's class for lessons. From the start of the lesson, it had already drawn all our attention by beginning it with some implemented card games. It was exciting and some of them really looked funny in that game. At least, I didn't find it boring though the rest of the lessons we were discussing about cults, illusions, Christian Science, so on and so forth. Sounds interesting... further more in depth next week I hope?
Service then lunch. Captain's ball training in the afternoon. The attendance was rather good as most of them turned up. Laze around at the room till at night. Played some lame games with the rest of the people who stayed behind. Losers are supposed to do dares; everyone was embarrassed in a sense that we all did different tasks which in turn were difficult. Mine was pretty bad, not to even mention it. Yeah, and we all had fun!

Nothing much happened on Monday, so shall not elaborate too much on that. Mabel, ervine and ernest came to my school to catch the first episode of Star Wars and Army Daze in the library. A drink at the canteen and basketball in school later in the afternoon too.
Stopped by at sheng shiong for dinner at KFC, walked around the bowling alley and the arcade before leaving for home. Was quite late already, and so I gone straight to bed.

Yesterday went school for a briefing on a trip to Negeri Sembilan, Malaysia. Really can't wait to live there with those villagers. To research on their culture, songs, poetry, language, etc.. I really do hope that I can gain something out of it bust most importantly, to have fun there. After the talk, went to meet up with yu han, ervine and mabel. Lunch then went home as mabel was there to visit my sister and yu han wanted to play romance of three kingdom. Nicholas came shortly after hearing that the rest were there too. Spent the rest of the afternoon on TV and cards.
Back listening to sermons after they left, till I dozed off.

Today, woke up super early as was informed to report at 10a.m. for camp preparation. We committees came together to do those props needed for that day. It was so tiring but nevertheless, I've got to know and make some friends. It was great having everyone's company, and we did bond quite well along the way. BB PRIMERS!! So fun! So great! See you're on Friday!
Tomorrow will be the start of the first camp, however everything goes well if only I won't be down with chicken pox at the very last minute. So, Mak! See you tomorrow!
Just bought a book 'StromBreaker', author is Anthony Horowitz, planning to read it during free time in camp. Starting to fall in love with reading, but for now is back to john's piper and his sermons.

Anyway, here is my schedule for the 2 weeks holidays I'm having.

14/6 -Green Fusion Camp and Floor ball training
15/6 - Green Fusion Camp then World Vision Camp
16/6 -World Vision Camp
17/6 -World Vision Camp
18/6 - Dance Camp
19/6 -Dance Camp
20/6 -Dance Camp then Night Cycling
21/6 - Night Cycling
22/6 -Steamboat
23/6 - Bake Cookies
30/7 - Big Hooha!

2007-06-08T23:35:00.000-07:00

A Simple Prayer.

Dear God,

I thank you for myself, that I'm Your child, that You have created me in Your own image that I belongs to You, that no matter in what circumstances You are with me because You say in Your word that You will never forsake Your child no matter what. That whenever I calls upon You, You listen and not a time You have forsaken me. God I pray that You guide me through every thought, that I will surrender every thought I have to You. That You be so real to me in this period of time that I will experience You once again. God would You awaken my spirit man once again, that my passion for You will not die off but will continue to grow even deeper. That I'll believe that Your timing is perfect, that my life belongs to You. God have Your way in my life, let Your will be done in my life. That step by step I will allow You to reign in every area of my life. God, at Your own timing would You reveal to me bit by bit of what you have in stored for your precious child. God, would You unblock my spiritual ears and open my spiritual eyes so that I can hear from You and see what You are doing in my life. God, I commit myself into Your hands, that You will take care of my every needs and that I will trust You like never before. Thank You God! In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

2007-06-05T23:55:00.000-07:00

The years go by so fast.

Memories remain from the past.

You remember the times of good and bad,

the days you wish you'd never had.

Life can be good,

doing things you thought you never could.

Living your dreamsfacing your fears,

with fun and laughter,

with heartache and tears.

Trying to express your feelings

wishing words would come your way,

All the thoughts in your headare all so hard to say.

To love and hate

To give and to take!

Searching for happiness

no matter how near or far.

Trying to find out the person you really are!

Living for the moment

giving life your all,

never giving up.

no matter how bad you fall

because life is lifeit's good and bad.

At times you'll be happy.

At times you'll be sad!

Tears are words from the heart that can't be spoken.

2007-06-03T23:55:00.000-07:00

Love Me For A Reason

Girl when you hold me
How you control me
You bend and you fold me
Any way you please
It must be easy for you
To love the things that you do
But just a pastime for you
I could never be

And I never know, girl
If I should stay or go
Cos the games that you play
Are driving me away...

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love
Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

Kisses and caresses
Are only minor tests, babe
Of love turned to stresses
Between a woman and a man
So if love everlasting
Isn't what you're asking
I'll have to pass, girl
I'm proud to take a stand

I can't continue guessing
Because it's only messing
With my pride, and my mind
So write down this time to time

I'm just a little old-fashioned
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a fascimile of

2007-05-30T20:30:00.000-07:00

Up, up and away

Finally, I can sit in my comfy armchair and blog about the events that happened this past week. Didn't really have time to blog about my life although everyday I told myself I wanted to.
It's been such a tiring and hectic week, didn't really have time to catch a breather. Assignments and projects kept coming one after another, seems like it's never ending. Sigh...

I'll start my post on from that Saturday. IHope was on the day but only manage to reach there in time for the last session which is at 4p.m. was held up by usual soccer trainings and friendly in the morning and so turned up late for that event. Heard from the rest of my church mates that Sy Rogers was a very good speaker. After hearing that 4p.m. talk from him, I felt it too. What he mentioned and told everyone, sounds so real and realistic. What had happened to him in the past, he spoke about it, and that seems to match what I'm experiencing now>> something that breaks your heart, something that has drawn you away from God, some things that you are really guilty of, some things that you can't seem to forgive, some things that had really changed you and some things that had brought you to a lost world.
I was really touched by his words, besides that his words was so powerful that it broken my heart once again, and what's left behind is those little shattered pieces. But this time round, it will be different. I've decided to turn over a new leaf, start of a new beginning, beginning of a new life, a new and changed identity, a new glimpse of hope, a new commitment to everyone else and most importantly God. Hopefully, i'm reborn through it.

And that comes the next day which was a Sunday. That day was suppose to go church for class and service, besides I'm on duty for PA for the second, well I missed that entire day, only but to lock myself home to finish up on my 2000 words essay. The blame can't be on me for not turning up, you have to see things in my point of view, practical, tutorials, checkpoints, group work all happening on that particular few days of that week, and how I am able to fork out for even just a little time for my ebf essay. It's impossible I guess! So, I'd to settle on the final two days of the submission date. And to a huge relieve, I've completed it on time and it was like 7 or 8 at night already. So you see people, it costs me so much time.
Finish the dinner parent's packet for me and off to bed...

It was such a beautiful Monday morning, early workout and a gift to see the sun rise near the lake. Such an amazing sight!
And whoo, off to school. It was a long day, programming skills in the morning, designing classes in the afternoon and last on the list ecommerce business in the late afternoon. Everything ended, but that thought of having to attend a briefing really kills me. I've got no choice or whatsoever but to attend it. The briefing is regarding about the camp I'm involved with on the 15th and 16th of June at republic poly known as "world famine camp" organized by world vision. Signed up with another friend to be one of the 45 committee members after knowing that the camp itself it's quite enriching and also educational. Overall, it was great and I'm quite looking forward to that 850 participant’s camp. Sounds so fun! And as per normal, reached home quite late. Had my dinner and off to bed.

Here comes the next day, TUESDAY! School started at 9a.m., had db revision in the morning for the exam tomorrow. Ordered Mac with the girls and had lunch at square. Went for business lesson after that finished up two case study and we were dismissed from class. Supposed to have training today but was excused having to sit for paper tomorrow. Dine out with parents and then back home mugging on database. Didn't know what time I'd slept, dozed off half-way I guess.

Today's the Wed..; it was kind of an intensive training where we focused only on programming the entire day. From morning till afternoon, we just kept doing practical and tutorial, I tell you its madness... sooner or later i'll go crazy and perhaps need a new pair of glasses for poor vision.
Sit for db paper after all the chionging, so glad to hear that it was an open book exam, so didn't really worry too much. Most people came without even revising but dependable on the book and the group of us found ourselves lucky to come prepared. Saw some people struggling as not everything came from the book, but we found it rather easy. Anyway, thanks to those who had helped when we were studying together.

Having said so much, I just wanna end my long post here and off for a break from everything. But before that, I have one more reflection to be completed and submitted by today. So yeah, after that I'm free! for now, =( hehe.

2007-05-23T20:00:00.000-07:00

Ngee Ann Floorball
>>Home of the scarecrows

Just gotten my floorball stick from the captain a couple of days ago. So cool man!
Having to be fully equipped, i went to queensway today to get my kid, fbt shorts for guys and a pair of court shoes.
Looking forward for my training tomorrow and i guess it's gonna be tough but no matter what, will give my best for the team. Yeah! The cheer and bonding session we will have every training. So cool, so majestic, everyone with one voice with the cheer...
Hooray scarecrows!
Anyway, president just announced that there will be physical training on everyday tuesday and skills training on thursday, =).
We have upcoming competition at october, and i guess it's time now for us to really focus on trainings and that we will win that competition. But before that, we need to get into the IVP team, and so i'll worked my very best to get into the starting lineup and represent our school for that major event, bring glory to ngee ann.

I hope for the best and that my energy won't burned out. =)

2007-05-21T22:30:00.000-07:00

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far
Behind me
Where troubles melt like lemon drops
Away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly
Birds fly over the rainbow
Why then, oh why can't I?

If happy little bluebirds fly
Beyond the rainbow
Why, oh why can't I?

>>i miss you so!

2007-05-20T23:55:00.000-07:00

Seniors held up, junior ease through

Senior team
- guys( me, ernest, joshua, ervine, en shao, matthew, edric, brandon, fu xing, ting yu, )
girls( my sister, amenda, eudora, yi jie and beatrice )
Scores
>>
Queenstown Methodist 16 - Geylang Methodist Team 2 18
Queenstown Methodist 8 - Hinghwa Methodist Team 1 1
Queenstown Methodist 15 - Toa Payoh Methodist 8
Queenstown Methodist 2 - Geylang Methodst Team 1 16
Queenstown Methodist 6 - Hinghwa Methodist Team 2 8

Junior team
- guys( ervine, jun xian, torsten, tuck heng, tuck yan, issac )
girls( my sister, eudora and eunice )
Scores
>>
Queenstown Methodist 25 - Toa Payoh Methodist 4
Queenstown Methodist 25 - Hinghwa 3
Queenstown Methodist 30 - Toa Payoh Methodist 8
Queenstown Methodist 21 - Hinghwa 9

yeah, captain's ball was fun.. The atmosphere was great. Cheers were heard all over, although the aunties were kind of irritated by those noises as they were having their folk dance lessons. But still, we didn't kept quiet as we motivated both our teams.
Seniors had to undergo priliminary rounds again on the actual day while the juniors had already booked their place in the quarters.
A step closer to that trophy and glory, but so near yet so far, so come on qcmc!

2007-05-18T23:45:00.000-07:00

More coming up...

Yesterday, floor ball training was tough as expected. Ran 6 rounds the track and some warming up and picking up on the new skills. Was pretty fun after all, and we had games after the usual training.
Captain wanted all of the boys to get a floor ball stick each for personal use and that we could use it both for trainings and the upcoming matches which will be in October. Ordered ‘spirit’ stick, just paid for it and yeah! , I could collect in on Tuesday. Guess I’m really committed to this sport already and hopefully with all the hard work, our team can get a medal in return.

Floor call captain told the whole team that we are supposed to have intensive physical training every Tuesday instead of just the usual Thursday trainings we have. Basically, it’s just for us to improve on our stamina and stuff. I’ve managed to negotiate with them and they have allowed me to not turn up for that Tuesday as it clashes with my dance sports. At first, I was being held up by both, and had to sacrifice one sports CCA. But now, I’m happy that I can be in both CCAs and that I could prove to myself that I can excel in both.

Fell in love with both after several meetings and that really sparked me up.
Hmm. School ended at 3 today. Went town with yong yang to get some stuff and we were on way to ACS Barker. Went there with him for some musical thingy put up by Temasek Junior College. Didn’t really want to go as I was kind of tired and had to get my FBTs tonight with dad. But still, I dragged myself there, and he was there to support a friend.
The choir was great and their voices were like ‘wooh!’ The musical at the finale was nice too, the dance and the music coordinated well and the overall effect did bring some amusement and entertainment to the audience, and I really thought the job was well done.

Rushed home for quick dinner and caught a little of bit of television. More to come tomorrow. Soccer training in the morning, studying at grandma’s place with cousin in the afternoon and captain’s ball in the evening. It will be a very tiring day for me. Guess it’s time for me to have a good night's sleep. Night.

2007-05-16T22:30:00.000-07:00

Busy, Busy!

Hmm, speaking about school and stuff, there’s a lot of things I could blog more about.

Rahh!!! Was late for school yet again, not because have I overslept, but the reason being there's a heavy traffic jam down at AYE where the accident on lane 3 and 4 causes pretty much obstruction. Lesson started at 9a.m., and I only manage to get there at 9.45, teacher was so nice, he didn't utter a word or even scold me for being late and besides that he allowed to sign my attendance, I doubt other lecturers would do such a thing.

Lesson ended at 3. I have plenty of time, probably until 6 as I was supposed to attend the talk on community service. I signed up with a friend yesterday before dance practice, just because CCA points will be awarded. But after attending the talk, I had a better understanding of community service; it's whereby you can contribute to the society by being a social worker, joining social workgroups, helping out in the environment and especially people who are in need of help in a way or another.
People might think doing social service all the time will be bored for them. But not to worry, various clubs will organize camps, events, outings, etc... so that besides working, we could have some time for bonding with group or fellow club members. And in addition, through the cca we could develop leadership skills where we could be part of the committee planning for those activities.
PASSION SNERGY offers 6 different clubs, but I'm only interested in 2, therefore I signed myself up for those 2 clubs. Surely, I'll be even busier than now. The 2 clubs are BB PRIMERS and ENVIRONMENT RANGERS SOCIETY. Hmm... my aim was to get 72 cca points within the 3 years but more importantly I hope I would gain and learn something out of it.

During my break, a guy of Reggie approaches me, and was told to do a survey. But through our conversation, what I realized was he was from 'Singapore Youth for Christ', searching for fellow Christian like me in the campus to join them for their events and prayer session every week. 1 more activity on the list! Anyway, we had a pretty nice chat and I agreed to do with him street evangelism in our school next tuesday. And definitely, it will be fun.

Reached home about 9, watch awhile of hong kong drama on television, and right now I'm sitting right in front of my laptop blogging and at the same time planning my planner. Oh, and I just realized my june is packed. So I guess no Malacca trip with parents and some of the church people already unless they can push it forward to like maybe before the 2nd week of june. My june's schedule will be as followed, but not finalize yet.
14th-16th Fusion Camp, 20th- 22 th Dance Camp, 23rd Dance Nationals (optional) and 30th Big Hooha. But I guess I left out some of it, I will include them in when they are confirmed. =) pretty much excited...
Yeah, what a month it will be!

Floor ball training tomorrow, off to catch some sleep. Zzz.

2007-05-14T20:30:00.000-07:00

Start Of Something New

It had came down to the worse, my days are numbered, I'm supposed it's time for me to leave.

It started after quarreling with my sister over dinner, during the conversation, I found and realize how ugly people can be. Where's the brothers' and sisters' taught in church? In my opinion I supposed, the qcmc I once knew and fell in love with had changed. I've tried my best to bring every of us together, but it just doesn't seem to work out. For what I see, other churches don't encounter such of a problem. But you would say, "come on la, everyone has flaws and certainly our church does too", come to think again it is not exactly untrue, it just different...different from the past.

I could no longer tolerate and bear that pressure I'm facing now which I still don't really know exactly where it came from. And that only by leaving, it's the best solution to all. I have some churches in mind already which I attended quite a few times there already, and I suppose that will be my next alternatives.
I'm finding it real hard to step in there but I'll try my very best.

All in all, for I can say, sorry guys! I have to end it real soon. I need a environment, a new identity, a start of something new!

Take care and god bless, my beloved qcmc.

2007-05-13T21:30:00.000-07:00

母亲节快乐!

在我成长岁月里, 妈妈扮演了一个很重要的角色
她让我感受到了家庭的温暖
他也让我享受到了伟大的母爱
他也给予了我无微不至的照顾

在我最悲伤的时候，有你的依靠
在我最空虚的时候，有你的陪伴
在我忧愁的时候，你试着让我忘掉烦恼
而在我快乐的时候，有你与我分享喜悦

这些都让我体会到了幸福，满足

我可以说在这十九年来，我们经历了不少风风雨雨
如刚才所说
有欢笑，有泪水，又生气，又担忧，有忧愁，有感动
在这些过程里，我相信彼此的感情会变得更深，更密切

小时候美好的时光，我永远纯在心里
至于将来，我以交托给上帝，让主带领
我在这也希望我么能够相处得很好，让家庭充满温馨，打造出更美好的未来

谢谢你妈妈！辛苦了！
母亲节快乐！

2007-05-10T19:00:00.000-07:00

Way Back Into Love

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

...with much <3!

2007-05-09T22:30:00.000-07:00

Twisting and Turning

Mixing and matching,
Twisting and turning,
Hoping and praying,
Dreaming and considering,
Never knowing yet always knowing,
Wanting to, yet not wanting to,
Mixing my heart,Matching my soul to yours,
Twisting fate with the flick of the wrist,
Turning my life over,
Hoping that it would end,
Praying that it never would stop,
Thinking it was over,
Wishing that it wasn't,
Dreaming of its coming,
Considering letting it steal within
Never knowing if it's true,
Always knowing that it's there.
Wanting to live in the light,
Not wanting the light to come,
The love of another
The dreams of someone close,
Remembering what you used to feel,
Can it come back if you pray so?

2007-05-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

A thousand thoughts

My mind is filled with a thousand thoughts. Gazing at the stars outside the window, I started to ponder about the happenings recently.
Looking back, life seems to be so simple yet perfect. In the past, I was a cheerful and active person, nothing seems to bring me down and I always believe that we should live life to the fullest and enjoy every moment of it. Happy and smiling from the bottom of my heart with such joy that I could find in those happenings and events.

But now, everything seems to be so complicated. I just felt like I had lost this battle, my heart and soul are in turmoil. I'm tossed into confusion and fear for myself. I'm a weakling, I can vouch for it. I failed to take over my own emotions, and it's hard to fake a smile where my lips could barely open.
A tear falls and I realize life will never be the same again. Another tear came down and I know it's too late for everything. I'm not whom I used to be. I can neither smile nor weep, and what's left in me are sorrows and sadness. Let the past become the memories for tomorrow, but am I determined to do that?

Oh man, I'm getting way to emo, = ( . For now, I truly understand that tears are words from the heart that can't be spoken.

To summarize...

My emotions are no longer tainted with reason.
The light laughters that bubbles on my lip often mantles over the depth of sadness, and the serious look may be sober veil that comes a divine peace and joy, in the night, it will be a painful frivolity, sleeping in the cold night's arms.

We never understand how little we need in this world until we know the loss of it. The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we waited for so long to begin it. The greatness comes not when things go the way you wanted, but the greatness comes when you are really tested, when you took some knocks, some disappointments, and the experience of setbacks. If only you have been into the deepest valley, you will know and understand how magnificent it is to be on the highest mountain.
Feelings aren't supposed to be logical. There's a lot to be said for self delusionment when it comes to matters of the heart. There is a time for departure even where there is no certain place you could head to. Some of us may think that holding on makes us feel stronger; but sometimes it's letting go instead.

I don't know whether the decision to preserver on was the right decision? But for whatever it is, I hope for the best.

2007-05-06T22:30:00.000-07:00

The 6th! A day not to rememberd!

The rain just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part the hold you left the mark
All that I dreamed of now it seems so dark
Though I told myself won't hold my breath a part of me was dying
There is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you'll know, I'd never let you go

The way, you left me there alone
I don't know what to say as I remembered everything on that day
I just can't believe what had happened
And surely that wasn't what I really wanted
To have that commitment ended

2007-05-04T23:45:00.000-07:00

Raahhh!

Holiday mood starts to set as E-learning week commends today, but instead I'm sad to hear that more homework are given instead than what could possibly be yet another vacation or maybe at least some free time to actually have a break or something. As you can remember I mentioned in my previous post, I'm still constantly faced with plenty of pressure, for that includes commitment to the team for the core modules and electives with CCAs in the list too.

I seriously feel that the team needs teamwork and participation is definitely needed from each and every member of the group and so much so for contributions. With that in mind even though the workload is huge and heavy, I'm glad that the team was there for me and that everyone is working their very best to complete the tasks given to each individual. Playing a huge role in it doesn't seem easy, as an example if any serious mistakes made or internal problems found within the group, team leader will be held responsible for everything or even the team's downfall. I'm relief my group wasn't what I'd imagined. I had a terrible experience back then last semester cos I was in an unorganized and slacked team, hah!, and that causes some very serious problem, woo.. bad memories.
Thank God for the guidance and strength that brought me through everything and that wasn't a worrying factor for me as I'm coping well with school work and doing well academically.

And for now, what worries me is that little injury I suffered couple of days back, a serious pain on my left arm has been showing symptoms already as red patches can be seen everywhere round that area, poor me!! And in addition I can't carry heavy object and can't exercise too vigorously. Sigh!...hope I'll recover soon and back to floor ball training. Boo! I miss the training yesterday due to this. haha Even though its just one training session, the whole team was greatly missed. Hope to see you guys soon!

Hai!!! , slept the whole day today due to lack of sleep as I was rushing my assignment late last night. And sadly I didn't participate in the crusade camp though was invited to attend the camp, joining them for their bbq, worship, prayer and bonding session through games. But never can I pull myself out of the bed as and that soft pillow of mine, it was so nice and comfortable. And surely, Daniel must be disappointed with that. But nevertheless, I'll join your guys for L.M next week and we'll do more catching up. As for those freshies going for the camp, hope you'll enjoy yourself there.

Writing till here, I would really like to thank those people who did cared and show your concern by giving me such big encouragement, for I can say that boosted me quite a lot. Now, with my battery fully charged, oil tank filled (stupid description =)), wahaha, and surely I'm ready for more and possibly another battle.
Hmm.., something important seems to be amiss, possibly that little extra… am still quite uncertain what lies ahead.

Thanks sandy for this lovely song!

Truth
Let me stay with you
Why is it that we want it so much
Even though we hurt one another?
Don't you know my heart?
I couldn't even be myself
I just want a single love...

I want to believe in the miracles that we've encountered
And play a melody for you
Even if I were to lose everything
These memories would be forever
It's my truth

Believe in yourself
In the times when you fall, just kept on walking, wiping away the tears
Open up your heart
Up ahead in your memories, certainly there is a hope called tomorrow

Give me your loneliness
And I'll give you my tenderness
Don't forget about the dreams you had on that day
Even if we're apart, I'll always feel
Only you, in my heart
It's my truth

The scattered stars whisper
As they shine down on my lost heart
Meetings and partings, people search for them
One day, we'll be able to tie a strong bond between one another

It's alright to accept all of the sadness
From all around the world, if it's for you
And even if I'm left behind by all of the rest of the world
I'll still believe in

The truth

2007-05-03T21:55:00.000-07:00

Falling, Breaking apart

What a busy week it has been for me. Assignments, projects and the loads of CCA commitments has certainly drained all my energy and symptoms of having headaches, tummy aches and even drowsiness have already been shown, I believe all theses are signs of falling sick soon. I refuse to go to the doctor for checkups as I continue to fight against the sickness and hope that I will overcome everything.

The heavy workload, surely it's driving me crazy. We are given so little time for homework and yet I'm facing deadlines everyday. Trainings end so late everyday, and that creates more problems, rushed home to finish up on the homework given and straight to bed after that. Surely that isn't what I want, but I know I have to work hard for everything and that my team members need me as i'm needed to hold the team together, I can't just fall so easily. Just pray that everything works out well and that my effort wouldn’t go to waste.

But besides being so positive about things, negatives times did come too. That little setback weeks ago did draw me back a little and it had caused me a quite a few problems already. I thought I'd managed to overcome everything, but instead I was totally wrong. I seem to have fallen much deeper.
Although it happened long enough that everyone could have forgotten about it, but it still bugs me every now and then when I'm alone or in a daze. I just feel that it's some kind of spell cast on me that I would never get out of.
It's not a bad thing after all, yes it sure isn't! I used that little "emo" time that I possibly wouldn't have, to do some reflections and perhaps to have some personal time with God.
People, verses and many other things surely pulled me through the darkest times of my life. Thank God for all that!

We bound to face challenges and setbacks in life, but we must learn to overcome everything and find solutions to it. I know I had to get on with my life, continue to pursue that aim and ambition I've set for myself… and just pin on that little hope that my dream may come true eventually.

And for now,
looking out of the window, gazing at that dark pitched sky, seeing those little raindrops as they starts to fall, images has already started flowing through my mind, how I wish that didn't really ended for me and that time wouldn't pass that fast. I just can't control my tears as it rolls down my cheeks, I'm feeling so terrible... I'm outta here!

A song to sum everything up.

因为

总在回家时候不知所措

想再打电话给你可是再见刚刚才说过

有一种想要拥抱你的冲动　想静静看著你的笑容

让你藏在怀中　直到我每天的尽头

因为想一个人而寂寞因为爱一个人而温柔

因为有一个梦而执著因为等一个人而折磨

因为想一个人而解脱因为爱一个人而宽容

因为有一个梦而放纵因为等一个人而漂泊

因为想一个人而寂寞因为爱一个人而温柔

像夜的朦拢　你的深情难懂

我的世界因为你而不同因为想一个人而解脱　

因为爱一个人而宽容像风的自由

你的深情难留你的背影　是我最美丽的所有

2007-04-29T21:35:00.000-07:00

Sunday!!

Woke up exceptionally early in the morning as my mum pulled me out of bed>> she wanted me to go our church(qcmc) instead of attending another church's fellowship which i normally do this couple of weeks. haiyoei! and so that's how and why i got to church so early in the morning.

Oh, supposed to meet aunty song ci last nigt. enshao called me up last night to tell me all these but then i choose to ignore it as i thought it was some kind of pranks or joke yet again and so i didn't turn up. dots.. but in the end, it wasn't and so she did so this morning. At first i found nervous talking to her, not knowing what should i tell her and what shouldn't i. But then after communicating for awhile, i didn't really felt that pressure already. And from that piece of conversation, i found out that she knows quite a fair bit of what's going on here*you know what*, then i decided to tell her everything since she already knew about it and that i didn't want to hide anything from her too. In all, the sharing was great....especially for the verses she shared with me and that prayer, i was touched and moved to tears.. thanks for everything people!

(Psalm 16)
- Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge. I said to the Lord,"You are my Lord; apart from you I have no good thing." As for the saints who are in the land, they are the glorious ones in whom is all my delight. The sorrows of those will increase who run after all gods. I will pour out libations of blood or take up their names on my lips. Lord, you have assignedme on my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant
places; surely I have a delightful inheritence. I will praise the Lord, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices; my body also will rest secure, because you will not abandon me to the grave, nor will you let your Holy one see decay. You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.

Went for lunch at tanglin halt than proceed on to school to do project work... oh hey, thanks guys for meeting up today cos i wasn't free anyday during weekdays or even saturdays but only on sundays..and also yew siang for helping me with DB.
On my way home, got to know a couple of soccer guys at the street soccer court, saw them playing, and so i went up to them and made friends with them though initially i only wanted to play with them. haha, joseph!!!, didn't know you were from IT too, see you around then. do you mind having soccer next week??

Arranged with beatrice for ice-cream at guthri house venezia, HER TREAT!, thanks :)
had two toppings of it, cookies and cream and tiramisu, chatted for awhile...Zzz, same old story again.
went shopping around with her before leaving for church to study. But upon reaching, the rest was about to leave, so went home instead...
Now back at home blogging. I've been slacking and doing nothing for the past 1 hour, so i guess it's time for me to get on with my work, do abit of reflections after that and and of course work on my mother's day card..Surprise! Surprise!

hoping for a brighter tomorrow.... but where can i find the source of light??

2007-04-28T23:45:00.000-07:00

Days in Ngee Ann

It has been a pretty busy and hectic week for me and I'm much worn out already. Is like me having school everyday till about 5 and CCAs after that...from 6 to 9 i guess. These few days especially, had to stay back with the kevin and terence to practice with the guitar and bass with me playing the keyboard for them. Nevertheless, I'm glad that i could join them in the band for worship session in crusade. thanks joyce for the constant reminders and sherman.. haha, you lead pretty well for the first L.M of the new year and thanks to michele too for the guidance and for staying back after school to train me on the keyboard.

Besides having practices and campus crusade is on thursday, dancesport is on every tuesday. Went for their first lesson as they taught us progressive cha cha.. wasn't really good at it, but then having a good dancing partner, she taught the moves and we found ourselves quite fast learners. my primary school classmate fiona was in that sport, being a senior, she show us some of the moves, we were impressed. After all that, i promised them i would go for the upcoming camp where we will have intensive latin practices and that we will be send for competitions. sounds cool huh... really wanna give it a try.

Floorball then will be on every thursday, training was tough, but then I'm willing to make sacrifices to get into the first team for floorball. I will make it! Make a couple of new friends there, guess i might be training with them for the next couple of weeks.. oh hey, alot of fairfians there..elton la, all you friends are like hilbert, shane and henry.. but they are nice people la, and good instructors. yeah!Np strings will be starting their lessons soon too, but terence said i could learn guitar from him, so i may consider not joining that, for now.

Oh lastly, not forgetting the tons of homework, assignments and projects i'd been given. It's like never ending.., no idea when I can ever complete everything. Got into new modules and made lots of new friends too. Group rotation makes me work with different people. Having the most pressure from DB class, cos I'm elected to become the team leader, so there comes responsibility and many other things. My group looks pretty slack but then i think i'll always be there to motivate them and hopes everything works out well. So, shaun, joe and subra, come on man brothers, work for an A grade! Have been selected to be in the same group with Rui Ping, Joycelin, Kai Ling and Zhi Yong for WAD and EBF. This group looks more promising in all aspects than the previous one. Not much worries than... Unfamiliar faces were seen in my new IS module, I&E, only 2 classmates of mine got into that class as me. Missed the first lesson due to a sickness, and so having gotten into their groups, i had to join the all girls team as they only had 4 members, for the rest had 5. At first, i was pretty shy as i sat there in silence for quite awhile before we started talking cos we had discussions and group activities. Hmm... frankly speaking, nothing scary at all. I found them quite interesting, friendly and humourous, and we worked pretty well together though I'm the only guy there. Guess that bonding will be greater as the days goes by, and that we will have more group activities. Hey, we have come up with a group name too. Sounds interesting. With me, Yu Hui and Si Min in IT course, Clarrissa and Magdalene in EE, we called ourselves "the E.T". more to come in the following weeks, cya guys.

Hey, year one freshmen from I.T., thanks for the variety show, all of your did a great job. Especially my best buddy kenneth, the group of year one's you leaded were great. They showed great enthusiasm in their dance and the dance was great. Song "summer loving" from the movie and we're all in this together in the movie . The performance was fascinating and i think your OGL deserve some of the credits. hehe, although i wasn't present to watch it, but from the practices you al had, and the comments people makes me believes that you're will be champs.. just like my class did for the amazing race last year, sadly not for the variety show. Speaking of that incident, i was so embarrassed by it as i was picked to be the lead singer for our item which is to sing the song "zhi ying wei ni" by zhang dong liang, but then i still leaded my class confidently in singing. Although we didn't win the grand prize, but then I'm sure that experience was unforgettable( standing infront of a crowd singing).All in all, it was fun and everyone was bonded through that, we certainly look more united than before.. So, great job guys!!!

WOW... yesterday's L.M.( L.I.F.E. Meeting) was awesome!!! that was like a massive crowd of people that turned up for it. It was like filled with crowd numbering thousands upon thousands... ok not that many.. wahaha maybe abt 100plus plus... But it really seems like it , maybe because I’m not used having so many people during L.M. It was a real encouragement. GOd is like kinda tell me that there many people( christian) out there wanting to shine the light for Jesus. And that is so cool. There are many people out there who wants to take their relationship with GOd seriously, and not only that, they want it to grow in the word!!! can you believe?!?... it is hard to find it in church sometimes... they are asking GOd for more... ( that was wat i saw and heard for myself from the freshmen) amazing... praise GOd...

I'm beat, i need a break. but it seems by weekends are packed too... Zzz...
more to come in the upcoming days...

2007-04-26T23:30:00.000-07:00

新的挑战

时间过得真快，一转眼，两个月的暑假已过去，又是收拾情绪回到校园的时候了。

还记得两个月前，那时的心情是有一点高兴也带着点依依不舍的。
就趁着这假期，我打了两份工，帮忙补贴家用。
在这er我要感谢公司的聘请，让我能有机会体验一下都市人的生活，此外也能吸取一些经验，使我有不少的收获。我感到很快乐。

但多少时候，我们也常会碰到不开心，伤心难过的事。那开朗，调皮，而常逗人开心的小男生就这样从此没有了，笑容也渐渐变少了。以前，我曾是人家的开心果，还能蹦蹦跳跳的跟人玩耍，那充满活力的年轻小伙子。
但那悲痛的事过了之后，我似乎变了一个人似的，整个人就好像失去了那股靖
说真的，我失去的真是太多太多了，整个人变得很沮丧，不知所措，甚至到了一个地部想要寻死。但感谢主，在我周围有一群很热心又有爱心和关心的弟兄姐妹的关怀与照顾，使我再一次恢复了信心，让我振作了起来。

在这件事后，更能让我感受到弟兄姐妹的爱，在此我的心也被打动。从中，我也领悟到了爱的真谛。

所以说，这两个月带给了我不少。
今日，我又在一次回到了学校。但这次有所不同，班级有所更改，犹如焕然一新的感觉。真不错，我也较到了几位好朋友。
我不zhi选到了不一样的科目，我还多加入了三个课外活动。他们就是拉丁，冒险俱乐部和何宣队。让我的生活增加了不少色彩。

我相信往后的日子会更美好，更有趣。我也会朝我的愿望努力，不轻易放弃我的爱情。
新的开始，新的挑战，一起努力吧！

2007-04-25T22:30:00.000-07:00

想起你

望着那飘浮不定的云彩那承重的心情又再一次被唤醒
看着那一张张的相片美丽的画面又浮现在我眼前
那一通通的简讯使我回想起那灿烂美好的时光
这一切勾起了我许多的回忆眼中不禁泛起了泪光

数着那闪烁不定的星星
它们仿佛正对着我微笑
望着水中那弯弯的月影
突然之间你的倩影在水中若隐若现

你嘴里的每一句话你给我的每一份关怀
那无微不至的照顾无限量的爱
我都晓得

所以说人生就像一出戏
有起有落，有欢笑，有哭泣
我们常会碰到许多苦难和挫折
虽然受到一定的影响
但我们要学习交托因一切他必带领

但如今这些甜蜜已成为过去
现在只能在这儿等待等候主的安排
期待那更美好的未来

我可以!

2007-04-24T22:00:00.000-07:00

凡是让主带领, 一生为主而活

感情生活在神, 一切行在光中

每日数算祝福, 永远唱着赞美

耶稣是最好的朋友, 伴我走人生路

日子不再颓废, 烂戏不再重演

凡是赞美, 凡是感恩, 凡事都可以

生命带着福音, 让生活流露出福音

2007-04-23T23:35:00.000-07:00

若耶稣同行

或要经过幽暗满布危险的山谷
或要住在光明稳妥平安的乐土
但我清楚明白经过桑田沧海
有耶稣同在我愿跟随不更改

若主要我奉献将生命之道传扬
横过火热沙漠是罪人得释放
若是神的旨意要我拔千里
有耶稣同行我愿跟随不放弃

不要疑惑查问主安排都是美善
唯有听从顺服他是最好良伴
不论停留前往不论进处远方
有耶稣同往我愿跟随不彷徨

若耶稣同行我愿跟随主往
无论到何方有耶稣就是天堂
甘心乐意背负十架不再回头望
若耶稣同行我愿跟随主往

2007-04-22T23:30:00.000-07:00

就是你

听见天使来歌唱，欢庆这耶稣已复活
他为我舍生命感谢你主
因着你来贴近，从前的忧伤不见了
你大爱更新我哦。改变了我
前方的路你会指引我哦主
我不在忧伤，我心充满喜乐

当献上我所有的赞美
我要让全世界知道知道是你
不在优豫我确定你是我神
生命的色彩

>>感谢你恩主，为我们的罪受死，担当了这一切
因你受的刑罚我们得平安
因你受的鞭伤我们得医治
成就了这一切单为我舍己。

主啊，你所吩咐我必遵行
因你已为我舍生命
把你的名传到万邦把你的爱带到地极，
主我一生为你用，
单单为你舍己。

2007-04-21T23:30:00.000-07:00

<<新的开始>>

记得在几个星期前，我遇到自己有生以来最大的挫折。因打击实在是太大了，所以一时之间也无法接受。这时我才发现以前的我太幼稚。这可能也是上帝的安排吧，把我带到生命的另一个层次。我发现在人生的每一个阶段，我们都会面对不同的挑战，更会经历到不同的事物，因此这种事的发生也不例外。

经过这事件之后，我从中学习到了一个很宝贵的功课，同时，也使我领悟到人与人关系的重要性。所以人们常常说，要珍惜眼前的人，不要等到失去后才后悔莫及。

记得刚开始的时候，我有满多忧虑，满多不愿意，满多不足的地方。但经过长时间的相处，彼此的认识，以及神的带领与看顾，很快的那些担忧与挑战我们都胜过了，感情是一天比一天丰富与精彩。

虽然我们已经分离，但我还是坚持我所追求与相信的。

<<新的开始>>

那天，夜里，泪水中，

我忽然想起了你。

无奈又翻开了以往的相片，

看着你我以前有多甜蜜

傻傻的，

望着手机上你的简讯，

就是舍不得把你忘记。

是不能忘记，还是不敢忘记?

我自己也不太清楚...

暗暗，窗外，下雨了，

泪和雨的滴答声，

融成了优柔的旋律。

既然已做了决定，

就不要后悔，

何必再伤上加伤，泪上加泪，

为不值得的事去悲伤？

是时候有新的开始，新的希望，

新的梦想将要起航。

这时发现生命依然，

未来依然，爱也依然，

正等待我去拥抱。

雨不觉中也停了，

弯月映影着我心中的微笑。

>>歌是这么说此，但我还是需要你的爱。
但我知凡事主都必带领。

2007-04-20T23:45:00.000-07:00

重来

有多少爱能重来?
多少人愿意等待?
失去之后才明白
走进回忆的安排
一幕一幕的对白
上演我们的未来

期待
原来是一种伤害
深爱的人一离开
是我不敢
忽略你给我的爱

现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你再泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的
你请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
请看需要你的我
一切重头
真的需要你的我
只要你回头

现在我只想
回到最初的时候
不愿让你在泪流
寂寞之后
只有你会陪着我
现在我只想
回到最初的时候
我知道你还爱着我
亲爱的
你请你握紧我的手
请你看看我
真的需要你的我
只要你回头